So I cried once again, I just wanna analyse why I reacted this way and what the situation was and why it really hurt and affected me and made me super pissed.
Mom said that she was hoping I would talk and talk yesterday and was giving me the opportunity to talk but I wasn't. And the other three always keep talking. Then she also kept saying that you should learn to keep talking all day and everyone likes someone who keeps talking a lot but am I supposed to start on my own like a loudspeaker and say random bullshit and dumb stuff?
I mean I know how THAT has turned out to be.
I'd like to say that I like to get comfortable on my own pace and I can talk quite a lot with people wher eI enjoy their company and all. I mean those people just keep talking about themselves, complimenting themselves, always wanting to debate on every stupid topic.
And plus I was tired from all the studying and I DID say some things too.
But Mom kept saying that She was waiting for me to say something.
And that since the few years she's never heard me talk among them. And that next time I should keep talking continuously and she would directly ask me something.
So in this situation I just feel demoralised because I mean it's not my fault.
everytime I do constantly try to talk so much and make so much efforts.
Now if I tell her anything about this she will get super pissed upon me and will say I can't even say a simple thing to you.
I can't even ignore her.
I think if I be more self confident in my speech she won't say so much stuff.
Mom said that she was hoping I would talk and talk yesterday and was giving me the opportunity to talk but I wasn't. And the other three always keep talking. Then she also kept saying that you should learn to keep talking all day and everyone likes someone who keeps talking a lot but am I supposed to start on my own like a loudspeaker and say random bullshit and dumb stuff?
I mean I know how THAT has turned out to be.
I'd like to say that I like to get comfortable on my own pace and I can talk quite a lot with people wher eI enjoy their company and all. I mean those people just keep talking about themselves, complimenting themselves, always wanting to debate on every stupid topic.
And plus I was tired from all the studying and I DID say some things too.
But Mom kept saying that She was waiting for me to say something.
And that since the few years she's never heard me talk among them. And that next time I should keep talking continuously and she would directly ask me something.
So in this situation I just feel demoralised because I mean it's not my fault.
everytime I do constantly try to talk so much and make so much efforts.
Now if I tell her anything about this she will get super pissed upon me and will say I can't even say a simple thing to you.
I can't even ignore her.
I think if I be more self confident in my speech she won't say so much stuff.
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