I have a good skill of always waiting, pointing out on a mistake I might've made, or just sit there with a fly net, waiting to catch the next negative thing on my way,
But its time for changes. Changes in the way I perceive myself, full with compassion for me, and believing in myself.
Treating myself as a best friend.
So the next best thing I should do is speed the negative process down and close it in a shutter.
The latest thing that struck me was that I was not as friendly to others and appeared as standoffish and rude when I don't intend to do that in reality. Talking about 8th grade-ish here.
I remembered that while talking to M on call today.
Anywayyyy,
Not that I care about what other people think. Okay zoop zoop, back to present, right.
Today I called Yukta, and ha a pretty long and funny chat, which is normal but you know I kinda felt that wow I really don't call anyone, and at school, I'm only like stuck to Pavanta, and there also during my off times I don' t connect with her blabla.
I just had to let that all out to clarify thoughts.
And I also called Khushmin.
So you know, it's a start. Not expecting much because like the 2 years are over and of course I can't fully blame the people for me being rude to them unknowingly.
Also should NOT think that much lol.
Just saying. feel like I should talk more and REACH OUT to people, in order for them to reach out to me.
It will happen slowly. But the good side, I did talk to 3 people today, without stutters without lulls in conversation. So progressss.
Bad news didn't study hahah so gots to go. I'm a pretty awesome person. No brag.
But its time for changes. Changes in the way I perceive myself, full with compassion for me, and believing in myself.
Treating myself as a best friend.
So the next best thing I should do is speed the negative process down and close it in a shutter.
The latest thing that struck me was that I was not as friendly to others and appeared as standoffish and rude when I don't intend to do that in reality. Talking about 8th grade-ish here.
I remembered that while talking to M on call today.
Anywayyyy,
Not that I care about what other people think. Okay zoop zoop, back to present, right.
Today I called Yukta, and ha a pretty long and funny chat, which is normal but you know I kinda felt that wow I really don't call anyone, and at school, I'm only like stuck to Pavanta, and there also during my off times I don' t connect with her blabla.
I just had to let that all out to clarify thoughts.
And I also called Khushmin.
So you know, it's a start. Not expecting much because like the 2 years are over and of course I can't fully blame the people for me being rude to them unknowingly.
Also should NOT think that much lol.
Just saying. feel like I should talk more and REACH OUT to people, in order for them to reach out to me.
It will happen slowly. But the good side, I did talk to 3 people today, without stutters without lulls in conversation. So progressss.
Bad news didn't study hahah so gots to go. I'm a pretty awesome person. No brag.
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